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Sometimes when you need something so badly and you would do anything for it, it seemed like moving a mountain to actually achieve that something and it seems so hard to get it. But when you's started giving up hoping for it, it has its way of coming back to you when you least need it and it came at the wrong time. And that moment is where you need to make a hasty yet important decision. I've been through it.

It's funny when people show their care and concern without you realizing it and they show it a manner which you find it hard to accept. Eventhoug its a fact but difficult knowing that SORRY can be be the hardest words to voice out and takes a whole lot of courage to send the most sincere apologies. But what's more hurting is when the person whom you've hurt doesn't accept your apologies. I've been through it.

It's a sad truth but to protect yourself from getting hurt and heartbroken, the best way is to shield yourself from it. And that is to draw a line between colleagues, friends, close friends, best friends, girlfriends and boyfriends. And to draw the line is to not love or let them love you too much. Because a mistake made from you is like a million daggers stabbed to their hearts than a mistake made from just a colleague which means nothing to them. I've made that mistake and i've also felt the stab.

And you'll be surprised at how your own friends can be very understanding no matter how ridiculous and stupid your problem is. Treasure them because they one of the sturdy pillars in your life when all other pillars seems to have collapse. I have made this mistake and i know it won't happen again because i was given an opportunity to redeem myself.

As for myself, i'm just like a bird being chained to my cage and even when the chain isn't there, i refuse to fly and be free when i could because of my own stupidity in believing that i'm still chained.

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